How, HOW did I get to be so broke????@?@##$*#&$(*!!!
I make more money now than I ever have before in my life.
I am not (currently) attending school.
I share my phone line, hydro and rent with my partner and a roommate.
I do not smoke, drink excessively or do drugs.
I haven’t seen a movie in the theatres since ‘Mean Girls’ two months ago, and I’ve only bought 5 books in the past 6 months.
I feel as though 90% of my free time is spent eating pasta or chicken fingers at home while watching selections from Justin’s DVD collection. For free.
Yet I owe over $50K on my mortgage.
My line of credit is raging *wildly* out of control as I continually pay off my credit card bills with it.
And I was overdrawn on my bank account by $120 last night, before my paycheck showed up.
Is it the new $120/month in transit costs? The $175 I spent on Justin’s Hallowe’en costume? The money I’ve put towards silkscreening uniforms for the Snail (which I eventually hope to recoup, but people don’t seem that satisfied with my work, so who knows?). The bathroom renovations, the trip to San Diego, the trip to B.C., the three new pairs of glasses, the two weddings (one of which I still haven’t bought a gift for), the guest bed and plants for my cubicle from Ikea, the new business suits, the endless shopping trips to CostCo and Best Buy???
WHAT THE HELL??? WHY CAN’T I STOP SPENDING!?!?!
I think it’s time to start regularly sitting in a darkened room, eating toast and not dreaming of shopping or travelling or anything that costs any money at all. Then, maybe, I’ll be out of severe, heart-pounding debt in just 5 or 6 years. Maybe.